For any of you poor souls that read this never updated blog :) here is an update...
The day after Christmas, someone decided I needed to be more self-reliant. Which is funny since that is the visiting teaching lesson this month. My car caught fire...not a bad fire, but enough for me to panic and cry a lot. Thank goodness for my parents (I know, not very self reliant lol) I was able to borrow my mom's van to get around. My car is now ok and didn't cost much.
The day after my car incident, my hard drive crashed...HOLY MOLY...can this all happen at once! Well, luckily my dad (again i know not very self reliant) had an extra computer he let em borrow while mine was being fixed. I took it to this guys store in the Spanish branch of the Lilburn Stake and he saved my bank account. He fixed my computer for cheap.
Anyways, about this whole self reliance...I have really been thinking what i would do without my parents. I appreciate them more than you might ever know. I rely on them to help watch Kyra while i work at their house. Since we are already there almost every night, we eat dinner there. Most of the time lately my brother cooks. During the whole time of my two catastrophe's, we got a little bit of snow and ice. Enough that I didn't leave my house for a few days. Not to go to work, not to take Kyra to school, not to go to my parents!!!!!! Here i was, home alone with Kyra for days which seemed like months. We both eventually developed housotosis. I mean it. We were both at wits end. I was so thankful for her to be going to school that next day and me going into the office.
So, through all of this, I have realized that I have developed some patience skills that I did not have before. I have learned how to be more tolerant. These two things I have been praying for a while now. I am also learning how to me more self reliant, which i love. It feels really good to make dinner for the two of us and sit down at our table and eat. It feels really good to go to the grocery store and buy foods other than breakfast items. I swear the people at publix probably thought that was all I fed Kyra lol.
I know this may be miniscule to someone else, maybe you, for me, it has been giant steps. I used to be VERY self reliant, but just hear lately not so much. So, I am glad to be getting back to myself and back to my mommy role. and boy do I love my parents and my family :)